Do you remember being a kid and wanting SO bad to be an adult?  I remember I had my “plan” formed of how my life would look by 25.  I would have graduated college as a meteorologist, gotten married, and starting kids.

Imagine my surprise, when I hit 25 and I was in graduate school to be an Athletic Trainer, and nowhere close to WANTING to be married.  And kids?  Nope.  Not even a thought.  It scared the ever living daylights out of me to think about taking care of tiny humans!

Now, I’m 32, and I’m married and have 2 beautiful kiddos.  Boy, are they EXHAUSTING!  I had no idea.  I mean, my husband and I have NO idea (totally winging it), but we’re surviving!  That’s what I feel like I hear all the time now, from most adults.  We’re just “surviving”.  I totally relate – adulthood is HARD.  No one told me this when I was a little kid, thinking time was going so SLOW (I just wanted Christmas to get here already), and my biggest stress was people liking me.

Things are not as I imagined they would be when I was younger, they honestly are better than I could’ve imagined. But getting to this point? So hard. But also I had some GREAT times in my 20’s ☺️ I find myself missing those times sometimes, mostly the lack of responsibility. I am grateful EVERYDAY for my husband and children, especially since I’m more aware of the world, and how much harder it is for others. I wake up every day, in a warm house that is mine, with family that loves us, and the ability to support my family and their needs. I realize how special that is, and how I don’t want to take it for granted. I don’t want to take anyone in my life for granted, because I am blessed they’re in my life.

I often think about loss. Losing people to just growing apart, life being busy, or losing them to death. It scares the CRAP out of me. I have to try to get myself out of that thought before I go down the rabbit hole. I’m so scared of losing people, that I become frozen with the thought. Adulthood has really brought things to a new light. In my 20’s, life was fun and spontaneous. Now in my 30’s, and I’m hitting that stage where I’m grateful for everything. I’m realizing this life isn’t forever, and to enjoy each day and quit wishing it away. Time moves SO fast, and I’ll lose that time if I don’t try to truly enjoy it. I have to stop worrying about losing people and time, and just live it!

I’m slowly getting better with that. I find myself still anxious and worried at times, but then I look around and am slapped in the face by how wonderful life is. ☺️ Times will always get hard too, but those tough seasons don’t last a lifetime, unless you let them.