When I was younger (and we’re talking grade school age here people)I thought by 25 I would be married and having babies. Then I thought by my 30’s that I would “have my life together”. What does even that mean? I am not sure. In my head I think it’s that everything in my life will align perfectly and flow seamlessly. I’ve had tiny moments where that’s the case or it FEELS like that’s the case. EVERYTHING in life will never seamlessly come together. It doesn’t work that way. I cannot be on my A game with work, mommying, wife-ing, working out, cooking dinner, not wasting time on social media, etc. I certainly have my priorities, but those can change day by day.

I’ve gone off topic. I wanted to talk about self doubt. When I was younger I thought by the time I”m an adult I would have no self doubt and I would have this whole life thing figured out. I have only figured out that I am surviving yet thriving and so is everyone else. Even though I know I have worked really hard to get where I am with every aspect of my life, I still have so much doubt in myself.

1. I know I am a bombtastic employee. I work VERY hard, and even though family is my number one priority, I make sure to get done what needs to get done.
2. I know that I love my family with everything I’ve got, and while some days are not my best, my kids and husband go to bed knowing they are loved by me.
3. I know that I continue to work very hard on myself daily to make sure that I love myself, even though the way I talk to myself isn’t the kindest.

So why do I question if I’m enough? Why do I question who I am? Why do these thoughts always come at us like a slap in the face?

I guess because that’s life and we’re all human. And it’s HARD. It’s hard for everyone even though others hide it better. And that’s okay too to hide how freaking hard it is. I’ve learned that with my inner circle I don’t need to hide it as much, and that’s a really great feeling. Having hard days and feeling that emotion is healing and feels (exhausting) but great in the end.

I feel this post is all over the place, but it’s almost a little glimpse into my brain. Just know that we’re all trying REALLY hard, every day, and to be kind to others and YOURSELF.